Stressed

Where do I begin?

Andrew's health is back and forth, so I'm not sure what to think most days. Sometimes worried, frequently hopeful. I just wish I knew if this were temporary or not. (See previous post for more details).

Church. In the past few weeks, we've gone through an emotional tug-of-war. Our elders turned away the pastoral candidate that our search team spent over a year selecting. Each team member probably spent 600+ hours in that year on this task. Then people were hurt, angry, etc. Lots of people left. The next week, our interim pastor stepped down from that position so that he could devote his energy to being our Worship Pastor, Associate Pastor, and Elder. (All of which he was before). So then there was the mindset that we're a 10 year old church without a building, without a pastor, and without an interim pastor. Nice! The following week, our elders decided that they were going to call up the pastoral candidate they turned down and invite him to our church to speak and have the church body vote on him. (Which they should have done in the first place, but that's just me.) Great news, right? It was, until our Worship Pastor/Associate Pastor/Elder announced that he was now resigning his position altogether and that his last day with our church is in two weeks. We adore him and are heartbroken, but he feels that God is leading him on to other areas of ministry. When God calls, we are to obey, so I can't blame him. I will miss him though.
The ROCCtoberfest is actually going quite well, but it's still work and a lot to juggle with a sick family, a pregnancy, and church drama going on in the background.

Me - You know it's sad when you get excited to go to the OB/GYN. Want to know why? Because they ask about ME! They want to know MY social security number, my date of birth, how I'M doing, etc. They draw MY blood, and I am totally alone. How pathetic am I to revel in the simple pleasure of writing down 4/1/77 for a change? I am truly a wife and mother, aren't I?
I am fighting off a cold and/or allergies. I figured this would happen. I am totally drained from everything going on around me and never feel like I'm getting enough sleep. I am wondering if I am slightly anemic (I was during my pregnancy with Andrew), or if it's just the result of a chaotic life. I'll give it another week and see if things don't improve.

Finances - Being a one income family completely bites somedays. I wouldn't want to change that for a minute, because it means that I get to spend so much time at home. But still, this paycheck to paycheck thing is getting so old.


OK, I'm feeling a bit better now that I got the chance to whine for a bit. Next time I'll try and be a bit more chipper.